Fear...

You have accompanied me for too many years and I'M.SICK.OF.YOU!

I've been thinking.  A LOT.  Mostly thoughts about giving birth and all the complications that could possibly walk alongside the experience.  We've been taking Bradley method classes and our instructor is HONEST!  A little too honest for me... maybe I would have been better off not knowing!

I have, for too long now, allowed fear to stop me dead in my tracks as I seem to have a tendency to run the opposite direction.  The only way out?  Face it.  Do it.  Punch it in the face.  So, that's my goal.  To just do it.  The fear is still there staring at me in the face, and maybe it won't leave, but I NEED to push myself on, to conquer it, to overcome.  Afterall, maybe I'll come out on the other side stronger and more confident.  

So, with all the fear that has crept inside my mind and heart, I say "You are NOT welcome here!" 

Adios!
Goodbye!
Revoir!
Lebewohl!
Kwaheri!

"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. "
2 Timothy 1:7